"Just Let Me Cry"

So, I occasionaly check Hilary Weeks blog on her website. (http://www.hilaryweeks.com/) (can anyone tell me how to do the hyperlink thing - I think that is what it is called - where you can't see the link just the name) She usually has something uplifting to say on there. I absolutely love her music and listen to it quite often. She has been working on a new album and is in the process of recording it right now. I just thought I would post what she wrote the other day because it struck a cord with me. Sometimes, but not always - this poem is exactly the way I feel. The poem below just says it all! Hopefully she doesn't mind me posting her post on here.

Day 2 of Recording July 15th, 2008

Today we recorded “Just Let Me Cry.” This song was inspired by a poem I received from a family who lost their 8 year-old daughter to cancer. This is the poem:

Please, don’t ask us if we’re over “it” yet.

We’ll never be over it.

Please, don’t tell us they’re in a better place.

They aren’t with us.

Please don’t say, “At least they aren’t suffering.”

We haven’t come to terms with why they had to suffer at all.

Please, don’t tell us you know how we feel unless you have lost a child.

Please, don’t ask us if we feel better.

Bereavement isn’t a condition that clears up.

Please don’t tell us, “At least you had them for a time.”

What year would you choose for you child to die?

Please, don’t tell us, “God never gives you more than you can bear.”

Please, just tell us you are sorry.

Please, just say you remember our children, if you do.

Please, just let us talk about our children.

Please, mention our children’s names.

Please just let us cry.

When I read the last line of that poem, I knew a song had to be written. Sometimes when we are going through something difficult, something heart-breaking, nothing anyone says or does is going to make it better. We simply need to mourn. We just need to cry. It doesn’t mean we don’t have faith. It doesn’t mean we don’t believe in the Atonement or Christ’s ability to heal our hearts. It is just part of the healing process. And it has to happen. We have to let ourselves cry sometimes.

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So - if you are one of the lucky ones that gets to see and hear me cry sometimes - please just know that it is just something that I have learned that I will probably do for the rest of my life. I miss my sweet Karleigh. Sometimes the pain can be extreme and overwhelming, but sometimes the comfort that comes is more than I will ever be able to describe. Many times I cry in private and no one ever knows. For me, these are the times I have felt the hand of God the most as He has held me up and gotten me through my sorrow. Now that there has been some time since Karleigh's passing, I look back and see countless ways that I was carried through difficult times. There would have been no way I could have done it alone. He carried so many of my burdens during that time and still does. My burdens were also made light by many caring and loving family and friends. I will be forever grateful to my Savior and to all of you who make my burdens light.